Never A Bride

I think this is what you called "SOUR GRAPING".....but....... what the HECK! this is my Blog and I can say whatever I want to say.

How will I start... have you watched 27 Dresses? I liked that movie (I like it A LOT!), why?, because I am that girl, lady, woman.. what ever you wanna call it.

I relate to her, it is like I'm watching myself and my "Disoriented" love story

The only funny thing is, it's my story except for the last part where the girl marries the boy! hmmmp...

Helloooooooooooooo! have you read my Blog title.

If there is what you so called the five (5) stages of grief that those people who've lost a love one must go through, I think there is also the Five (5) Stages of 'Never A Bride' Hysteria.

What are they!

1st stage: Denial "this isn't happening to me!" - for ***** long years I've been with my *******g boyfriend, he will propose to me. You'll see!..... whatever, whenever (even if it takes FOREVER!!!)

2nd stage: Anger "why is this happening to me?" - I'm beautiful, sexy..hmmp, college gradute, funny, etc...etc but why? for (#th) years? he's not proposing!!!! He does not even say a word!

3rd stage: Bargaining "I promise I'll be a better person if..." - I'll be a good wife, a good mother, a horny mistress, your best friend, what ever you want me to be even WONDERWOMAN. But please ask me "Will you marry me?"

4th stage: Depression "I don't care anymore" - okay, if you'll not going to ask me to marry you then so be it. There are lots of handsome guys out there much better than you (thats' the spirit, Go GIRL!)

5th stage: Acceptance "I'm ready for whatever comes" - this is the stage where I would say "COME WHAT MAY"

Now, you know!

Maybe... I passed through up to the 4th stage but sometimes I go back to the 1st stage, like now, I'm looking for the design of my wedding gown, searching the net for affordable wedding venues, asking advices from my friends about the wedding, the wedding ring, entourage..etc (it is very nice to dream..i tell you)

But hey! I remember my sweet loving boyfriend is not yet proposing...

What will I do? I will again approach him then ask him again about our supposed wedding date but he will just look me in the eye and tell me "we'll get married soon that's why we're saving, right?" then I will ask him again, WHEN? (this is the part where silence reign........................i think we need 10 more years. what do you think?)... I know you know!

And I also knew that there are Millionzzzzzzzzzzzzzz of women out there expereincing these stages like my self but we keep on hiding, covering, wrapping our loneliness for the fact that we (female) don't want our boyfriends to be exasperated, which tends to push them away.

Okay! I made this not to be sad but just to be busy for a while and to give myself a little time to be not crazy to surf again the net for ALL ABOUT WEDDINGS!